How my mum got me to stop breaking Oma’s cigarettes…

en nu diep inademen 200dpi

I’ve been working on a graphic novel telling my mum’s story. At the moment I am letting memories flow and eventually I will put them together. I realised this story is not just about my mum’s illness and her choice to end her life by means of Euthanasia. It is also about my relationship with her. Her illness is closely linked with my history with depression. It is a story of pure love and emotional chaos.

But it is not all serious! My mum was a wonderful, warm-heated and passionate woman…with her own special way of dealing with toddler problems; I used to break my grandmother’s cigarettes, which were always in a glass jar on her table. To be fair, it must feel incredibly satisfying to break a cigarette, I can just imagine it now…and I always like to think that in my innocence I was trying to tell my Oma that this was an unhealthy habit and she should just stop it 😉

One day my mum told me to put one of the cigarettes in my mouth and she lit it, instructing me to inhale deeply. “En nu heel diep inademen.”

She’d told me that for a moment she feared she’d actually killed me but luckily I managed to breathe again…eventually!

I’ve never touched a cigarette since. I never even smoked, though there were other factors that played a part in my teenage years why I didn’t choose to smoke. Still, being nearly choked to death by cigarette smoke undoubtedly played a big part!

The joys of 1970’s parenting! 😉

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The Search For Dolores – chapter 12

the search for dolores

This painting is nearly finished, am adding some details. I have no idea where the story is leading to. I’m just following Flow and Rosado ….hopefully they’ll find Dolores 😉

Emotional Flow

oh-flow

I’m currently working on a Flow series based on strong emotions.

Flow is a girl who came to visit us humans on Earth, and experiences human life in all its riches and intensities, with curiosity.

She experiences emotions like a toddler; you feel it, express it and let it go.

No hanging on to the past, no lingering in the stories…just letting it go…

Sounds so easy…

 

Hello Crohn

The adventures in digital collaging continues…. capturing my mum’s determination to see the beauty in life, while Crohn’s would always be present.

hellocrohn Elsbeth van der Poel